SHRED.

I have decided that I want to get in shape. I have spent too much time with the mindset that "I am young and I can lose weight any time I want, so lets be lazy and a pig." My metabolism isn't getting any slower (not that it was fast to begin with ;)). I am doing Jillian Michael's 30 day Shred work out video. Its only like 25 minutes long each day but it WORKS YOU. Its tough. It hurts. But I have read only good reviews from it, so I hope it works. I am also trying to eat healthier and much less, plus I am taking Slim Quick fat burn pills. The pills just make you less hungry is all. Okay, so I should have done this on day one but it is day 4.. oh well. Here are *hopefully* "before pictures of me. My biggest annoyances are my hips, gut, and arms. In 26 days, I will come back here and post pictures again in the same swim suit. Cross your fingers that it works! :)) I am trying to be positive!

Drama.

Drama is one of the most unnecessary things in life. What does it do? Does it do anything good for anyone? All drama causes is pain for all parties. You only live once, why get bogged down in stuff that is in the past?

A psychologist would have a field day.

I see what it does to you, but it doesn't stop me from wanting to have it, too. Weird, huh? Can't explain it. Don't know if its worth it to worry about it. I guess take things as they come in life, eh?

Peace.

Where your mind can be free, and you are surrounded only by purity. This song and video makes me think of you, and our time running through snowy forests. Thank you.

No Subject.

Who are we

Where are we

When are we

Why are we

Who are we

Where are we

Why why why?

-Muse, Exogenesis Symphony #1

I feel like these lyrics explain so much. We can ask even the most basic questions... like, "Why?" But with no answers. These are questions that will never have answers, but they are questions that will always be asked.

We will make changes as any family will, but we will always be called the folks who live on the hills

I love listening to jazz. I don't know the names of any bands or singers, really, and I don't sit in the dark smokey clubs sipping wine while listening to some unknown jazz group... I just like to play the jazz radio all day. I don't know what it is about jazz, but I feel like it is one of the purest forms of music. It comes straight from the heart, with no rules to hold it back like in classical music, and it is more diverse and expressive than pop/rock music. There is no such thing as "good" or "bad" jazz. It just is. I think that's why I love it so much- because we, as humans, just are. Jazz speaks to the heart of humanity. Jazz music sparks creativity. You know, I think when I have children some day, I'm going to play jazz music for them when they are babies... ha ha.

Sorry, my thoughts are not very well organized today. I just taught a cello lesson and my brain is still kind of spinning from it. He was having trouble with his bow hand and I was trying to reach from every crevasse in my brain to find a way to explain how to hold the bow... and he was STILL confused. Argh.

Well, I think I'm going to go keep listening to my jazz music and make some tea, and transport my mind to the heart of New Orleans... Oh boy, did I love New Orleans... I hope to live there some day. To be surrounded by this music constantly is a dream that makes my heart well up with excitement, just at the thought of it...

:)

Our ancient heroes, they are turning to dust

HAI BLOG! Yeah I've been gone a while. School, bla bla bla. Now school is over and its summer and I PROMISE to update this more often. :D

I just got my mercer email today... it makes me really sad to be leaving SMU. I love SMU and I always will. I will miss the people the most though. Some of the friends I made at SMU I could never make anywhere else- they are so fantastic and unique. No matter different schools, Carrie will always be my best friend. I can't even begin to describe the wonderful impact she has made in my life since we have been friends... even thinking about not being in school with her makes me want to cry. No lesbo. Just you know, long orchestra rehearsals and how every day we would get a cliff bar and energy drink from 7-11 beforehand to keep us awake (and hyper!), and double dating with the marines, and shopping even though we didn't have any money... the list goes on. Yeah, I'm gonna miss her...

There has been so much on my mind lately and I will definitely let it all out on this blog, but first I need to organize my thoughts. Until then-